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Wednesday, September 24, 2008

about me.

i thought tis year would be a peaceful year fer mi. but im wrong.
this happened ard mi reali do affects mi alot and i tot it wun.
recall few mths back.. i had relationship and frenship prob happened quite sudden.

i duno shld i take tis in a positive or negative manner.
if positive i would tink : all these allows mi to SEE CLEARLY these fuckers.
if negative : i "thought" ive lost some loved ones.

but of coz. i choose to look at all these in the positive manners.

to mi right nw.. i tink:

if i nv giv up in my previous r.s , i wil nt noe tis bf who is reali treasure mi more than anyone else.
if i nv giv up in my previous r.s, i might be stil crying almost everynite.
if i nv giv up in my previou r.s, i might be stil struggling everydae and think hw to salvage the r.s

if things did nt happen, i might b stil being a STUPID RETARD and trust dem?
if things did nt happen, i wil stil b mixing wif hypocrites?
if things did nt happen earlier, i might be more hurt in future?

hence, in life i tink tat just giv up on smthink and dun cling on things tat dun belong to u.
make the wise decision. but once decided, jus do it , dun look back, No Point.
i noe its difficult. but tats the parts and parcels of life.
i hate to regret. i jus simply hate tat feelings.
i hate to change my own character jus to make others hapi.
i hate to hide my own feelings to myself.
i hate to keep quiet wen i reali feel lk shouting.

yes! ive changed. so mani things ard mi makes mi changed.
looking at hw ppl backstab one another makes mi feel tat tis world is ugly.
looking at hw ppl reali can changed within weeks makes mi feel its a wonder.
looking at hw ppl cheat on other's feelings makes mi feel tat they are BASTARDS.

ive changed.
ive gone back to the old self.
i am no longer the one tat will kip my feelings is im sad or wd fucking shit.
i am no longer gibin anyone any more faces if they were to provoke mi.
i am no longer givin those fuckers a damn bloody shit good attitude and force to smile.
THIS IS ME!.
i am mean.
i am sacarstic.
i am arrogant.
i am simply a bitch.
call me a bitch if u wan to.

right nw. im reali hapi wif wad i hv.
a nice family.
a wonderful bf.
a bunch of good sis n bros
my grp of cheerful klassmates.
a cute dog i hab
nice job.
and i hab so much things to love in my life.

and nw im reali fuckin hapi tt i had tis new bf , gene.
who is reali be there for mi wen im sad.
the most patient bf i ever had.
he respects, care, concern fer mi alot.
he is the only bf who nv raised his voice at mi.
he nv demands mi to do anything or change fer him
and he reali placed mi in the highest among everything in his hart.

gene, i promise, i wil nv let go of tis relationship easily, no matter wad. trust me.
i nv regret to be wif u. coz.. the way u treat mi is reali damn sweet.

lil leopard pawed by @ 8:28 AM

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